Wednesday, April 18, 2012

My Life, My Choice


In “Oh, the Places You’ll Go!”, Dr. Seuss said: “You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who'll decide where to go...” I am completely in line with his thought. You should live your life and make up your minds on how you should run it.
My life was not a bowl of cherries at first. My mother was a big cheese in almost everything which had happened in my life since I was a kid. She was the only one who called the tune. It was once in blue moon when I could decide what I was going to take or to do. She had a lot on her mind with me and my future. I sometimes ate my heart out when I saw my friends could get everything they were craving and did many things they like.
When I was at the third grade of senior high school, I was still on the fence about university I would go. My mother had her heart set on seeing me as a doctor but I didn’t really like it. I love English and I’m interested in studying it. Everytime I turned around my mother keep telling me that. She went to great lengths by taking me to many courses to get me prepared for the test in medical school. I didn’t want to bite the hands that feed me, so I came to that courses. I was on the horns of a dilemma. I had to choose between dancing to my mother’s tune or having a mind of my own. I joined the test based on my study report and I was given a chance to choose which universities I would go. I just didn’t want to burn my bridges so I chose medical school and English education department. In spite of coming to all the courses, I kept my fingers crossed hoping for English education department. I knew that I was not going places in medical school for I didn’t want to spend my time with no result but I believed that every dog has its day. I will get my success in studying English. It is better for me to be a lion in what I am capable of than be an ant in what I cannot.
Eventually, the day had come. I read the announcement from internet that I get into English education department at Yogyakarta State University. It made my day. My mother thought I was disappointed but I was not. I felt that it was a good time to get something off my chest. I told her that it’s my dream, my wish in everytime I do the prayer. I saw she cracked a smile at a glance but I knew that she had a second thought on my future.
Now, I had time of my life in campus. I learn much about English despite I still need to learn more. I get a scholarship from my faculty which I wouldn’t if I were in medical school. It was like cherry on top. I sometimes ask my mother for advices and it’s okay as long as she doesn’t steer my life.
In conclusion, I think life sometimes doesn’t need a goal, you just have to know what you are going to do next. I still don’t know whether I will be a teacher or not but what I am going to do next is just work out for the best. The most important thing is no one understand yourself better than you, so you must live your life and decide where it will go. The key is just don’t be afraid to face the music.